I don't know...

I don't know what my heart wants,
I can't hear the name it chants.

I don't know what my eyes want to see,
I can't imagine a happy you and me.

I don't know what I really desire,
I can't calm this growing fire.

I don't know what is my destination,
I can't just get off at any station.

I don't know what is in my fate,
I can't unlock this destiny gate.

I don't know what might just appear,
I can't shut my eyes and let it disappear.

I don't know what is right or wrong,
I can't decide but need to be strong.

I don't know what step to take next,
I can't just keep bleeding like this in text.

I don't know if he can hear,
I can't wait for things to be clear.

I ask WHY

Why shed your tears for someone,

who doesn't even know of their existence.

Why wait for someone,

who doesn't even value your patience.

Why spend time thinking about someone,

as the bond yet has no clarity.

Why dream about that someone,

as you will be shattered  from within when faced with reality.

Why pray for that someone,

your devotion shall be in vain.

Why make plans with that someone,

as they shall all go down the drain.

Why relate everything around to that someone,

as he sits there happy and clueless.

Why make that someone your life,

bcoz its true, he alone is capable of making me breathless.

I LIVE IN FEAR

I fear from what is unknown,

I fear from the fact that I have now grown.

I fear the one that is unfolding,

I fear the loss of the ones I am holding.

I fear the smile on my face,

I fear the time and its pace.

I fear the wrongs of the past,

I fear the spell it might cast.

I fear each step I take,

I fear the decisions I make.

I fear the loss of my power,

I fear the blessings he may no longer shower.

I fear I may lose myself,

I fear knowing my true inner self.